I know it has been a long time since my last entry. My life has been full of work work work. Here I am at the end of the year and my creative spark has not reared its head in a long while.

I am hoping that, that will change though. I have a couple of jobs in the next couple of weeks that I am hoping to get some good shots of. However I do need someone to still for a few makeup ideas. (Big HINT for the chica around the corner from me) Maybe she will even let me get some shots of her as well.

Anyways..

The year is winding down & I wish you all the very best. Good health warm wishes and safe festivities.

Cheers

Blah!!

I have been working with a couple of people on ideas for new ink & I am getting so very frustrated. There are two items that I have been looking for. One being a Gryphon that I want to wrap slightly around my other arm piece that already exisits & the other being a lotus (finally chose the flower) that I want to incorporate into more later.

So now on to my frustration. Everything that I have received back from these guys have been beautiful - don't get me wrong but I want them on my body so they have to be perfect...I don't want cartoony & way overdone.

It is harder still because I have been waiting for so long & I really am getting ansty to get more ink. I just don't want to settle & get something I will only be "okay" about.

J wants to go get new ink - so maybe I will go with her and watch - maybe just being there & hearing the zzzzz of the gun will placate me for a little while longer. Or maybe I am just deluding myself...I need to practice a little more patience I guess.

*snicker* very trivial stuff, I know...

I am not sure where the time has gone. I have just looked up it seems and fall is almost upon me. With weddings and other such important dates fast approaching I am certain that I will have oodles of things to fascinate you with...because goodness knows that the work work work I have been doing is not the least bit exciting.

The first of which is a house warming party on the long weekend, which should be much fun. Now I just have to figure out what the house warming gift should be!

Pomtini's anyone???

My door is ajar tonight. I am leaving it slightly propped open so I do not get overwhelmed. You know that feeling you get when you are shut into a space – no matter what the size. It can be a familiar space, one you love to spend time in usually, one that holds fond memories – a place that you are normally at peace. But sometimes – once that door shuts you are committed to solitude. Just you & the air that surrounds you.

I try to fill the space – with light, with sound & with various tasks set before me but my mind always drifts to the closed door. Perhaps because I know there is life beyond it. I feel like a three year old fighting sleep because they might miss a new wonder. That if they close their eyes the mysteries of universe will be told to the kid in the next house…

Silly? Perhaps.

It is more likely that my door is ajar tonight because I want to feel connected to what lays beyond it. No matter what it may be.

I am in this place – this moment of time that seems to be an endless sea of questions without answers. I know that once it passes I will view it as a turning point or a pivotal point in my life where a new chapter will begin & the ink will finally dry on the pages that came before. I know this yet I am still stuck here. Afraid? Perhaps or maybe just a little bit apprehensive of my ability to carry on. What if I am not ready and all I do is fall on my ass? I am fortunate that I have some amazing friends & family that I can rely on to tell me if I am going astray or if my ass looks good in those jeans... *grin* They will centre me & I will carry on once more after dusting myself off. Perhaps more bruised but always more aware. They say that you need to do one thing that pushes your comfort level each day. Well I have posted that on my “to do list” & being a bit OCD…we shall see...

My one big question right now is how can you find something when you are not sure what you are looking for? I know I want to share – maybe for now that is enough. So this is what the new pictures are about – small pieces if me in a chaotically rambling kind of way. Sharing & breaking my comfort zone

Cheers